Who, What, Where, Why, How.
Who might have been.
What might have happened.
Where are you in my life.
Why couldn't it work out.
How did that happen.
These are some of the biggest questions that I have in my life as I turned 30 late last year. Most of my friends had this crisis, back when they were 25. I always thought of myself as a late bloomer. Late to graduate. Late to enter the workforce. Heck, even late to realize to give importance to health. And, late to watch the video above.
Looking back, I have had a lifetime of love, pain, joy, and sorrow. Some lasting, some fleeting. Some serious, some casual. It all remains the same. I was happy. I was hurt. I sulked. I moved on. Lately, these 5 questions haunt me every single night I am alone with my thoughts.
WHO.
WHAT.
WHERE.
WHY.
HOW.
Life choices. These answer the 5 questions above and they have changed over time.
Adolescence: Who was that girl?! What are we drinking later?? Where's the party? Why do we have homework? How did I pass that class?
Late teens to early 20's: Who were you with last night? What, she's pregnant? Where can I work? Why do we have to go to grad practice? How did I pass that class???
Being 30 is not easy. But others will digress. It's not easy being a teen. Being 20's. Being middle aged. Being a father. Being a brother. Being a son. So now this is what I am concerned with:
WHO am I?
WHAT am I to myself and others?
WHERE am I going?
WHY am I like this?
HOW can I do better?
You see, even in watching a video like above, I can relate it to what I am feeling in this particular juncture in my life.
I better get a move on to answer those. But I wont be in a hurry. I'll take my sweet damn time.
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